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Best of Both Worlds


You may be wondering why the title of this post is a Hannah Montana reference, and why I have a very bad coloured in side of my hair in the picture above. (You should also know that I’m listening to the Hannah Montana soundtrack, and watching my childhood float away.) You see, lately I’ve been feeling a lot like Hannah Montana/Miley Cyrus, and I wanted to talk about my double life.

One one hand, I can stand up in front of 50 people and talk about books for an hour. I can socialise with other bloggers and readers and don’t make too much of a fool of myself. I’m incredibly organised and like to have things planned far into the future.

On the other hand, I can barely walk through Primark without feeling like I’m on the verge of a panic attack. I worry for days and days before meeting someone, trying to examine just what I could say. I do homework the night before because I spend more time blogging and procrastinating.

Lately, blogging has been seeping into every aspect of my life. I love it so much and I love the freedom of being able to share what I love doing more than anything in the world, but I’m not sure I want to rip the wig off yet. As my blog changes, I change with it and whilst I love the metamorphosis, it can be hard to brush away the parts that still want my blog to be hidden.

I’m so lucky to be where I am now. I’m a 15 year old, able to do what I love and have been offered such amazing opportunities. Blogging has changed my life in so many ways – I’m more confident than I was before, I’ve learnt invaluable skills that I wouldn’t have learnt any other way, and I’ve made the best friends I girl could possibly wish for.

Sometimes, though, it can be hard to get the balance right. This week I’m going on holiday and I’m worried if I’ll be able to get enough WiFi to schedule and write posts. I’ll spend time on Twitter when I could be socialising offline. Is my balance right?

So yes, I feel exactly like Hannah Montana right now. Slowly the wig is coming off, but I still need to get my balance right before it comes off for good.