Best of Both Worlds

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You may be wondering why the title of this post is a Hannah Montana reference, and why I have a very bad coloured in side of my hair in the picture above. (You should also know that I’m listening to the Hannah Montana soundtrack, and watching my childhood float away.) You see, lately I’ve been feeling a lot like Hannah Montana/Miley Cyrus, and I wanted to talk about my double life.

One one hand, I can stand up in front of 50 people and talk about books for an hour. I can socialise with other bloggers and readers and don’t make too much of a fool of myself. I’m incredibly organised and like to have things planned far into the future.

On the other hand, I can barely walk through Primark without feeling like I’m on the verge of a panic attack. I worry for days and days before meeting someone, trying to examine just what I could say. I do homework the night before because I spend more time blogging and procrastinating.

Lately, blogging has been seeping into every aspect of my life. I love it so much and I love the freedom of being able to share what I love doing more than anything in the world, but I’m not sure I want to rip the wig off yet. As my blog changes, I change with it and whilst I love the metamorphosis, it can be hard to brush away the parts that still want my blog to be hidden.

I’m so lucky to be where I am now. I’m a 15 year old, able to do what I love and have been offered such amazing opportunities. Blogging has changed my life in so many ways – I’m more confident than I was before, I’ve learnt invaluable skills that I wouldn’t have learnt any other way, and I’ve made the best friends I girl could possibly wish for.

Sometimes, though, it can be hard to get the balance right. This week I’m going on holiday and I’m worried if I’ll be able to get enough WiFi to schedule and write posts. I’ll spend time on Twitter when I could be socialising offline. Is my balance right?

So yes, I feel exactly like Hannah Montana right now. Slowly the wig is coming off, but I still need to get my balance right before it comes off for good.

Lucy Powrie

Lucy Powrie is a blogger, YouTuber and author from the UK. When she's not reading, she enjoys cuddling guinea pigs and eating Oreo chocolate, but let's be real: she's mostly always reading.

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    Sarah Corcoran

    27 October, 2014

    I think you’re doing a great job. You have oceans more confidence thanI had at your age. I still hide behind my website.

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    Faye

    27 October, 2014

    Psssst. You’re growing up! 😛

    Honestly though, even if you never fully “abandon the wig”, that’s okay. Just because you have “two sides” to you, doesn’t mean you’re not an honest or good person. Personally when I’m with my family I’ll act differently than when I’m with my friends, or with work colleagues. And that’s okay. Because I’m still me, just a different me. If that makes sense.

    Either way, what I’m trying to say is that you are awesome, no matter which side of you, you are. 🙂

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    Jess @My Reading Dress

    27 October, 2014

    Aw! This is a beautiful post, Lucy. Blogging has really opened up many opportunities and I love how it’s brought together link minded people from all around the world. The wig is fantastic metaphor, but honestly, don’t chuck it away! Somedays you just need a day with your wig, if you get what I mean? 🙂
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    Finley Jayne

    27 October, 2014

    For me, when I’m on vacation I don’t blog at all (no scheduled posts etc). I step away from it. I think it’s healthy to take breaks once in a while 🙂 Why not just enjoy your holiday and your real life socializing? Your blog will always be here when you get back!
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    Chrissi Reads

    27 October, 2014

    Lovely post, Lucy! I think you’re doing a great job.
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    Ebony @ Daring Damsels

    28 October, 2014

    Aw, Lucy! You’re doing such an amazing job. <3 I can definitely see where you're coming from though as I feel similar to you. I love the fact that blogging has enabled me to connect with other like-minded people and opened up new opportunities for me, but I feel similar to you when out in public – which isn't the best thing, but it's not something that will go away overnight. I completely agree with Jess though, don't through your wig out – it's true, some days you need a wig.

    Lovely post, Lucy – thank you for sharing. 🙂
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    Jesse Owen

    28 October, 2014

    Awww, Lucy – you’re doing a grand job.

    I can see where you’re coming from – I think we all have different sides to us. From being quiet in some places and being more outgoing when we’re around people we trust.

    Great post! 🙂
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    Rachel (Booktastic Reviews)

    28 October, 2014

    Love this post, haha! [& now I can’t stop singing Best of Both Worlds *facepalm*]

    I’m really loving blogging at the moment (I’ve got right back into it!) and so I *should* feel like I’m spending too much time blogging when I should be out somewhere/doing something else but… I’m not. I’m really enjoying it.

    So basically, what I’m trying to say is, if you’re happy right now the way you’re doing things, then that’s the right balance. The 100% right balance! 😀

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    booklovingjess

    31 October, 2014

    Omg this is literally me! I feel like im living two lives sometimes with my booktube channel and then school life. No one at school knows about utube and sometimes when i talk to people from school i feel like a completely different person to the one who openly talks about books. Its great that i have somewhere where i can 100% be myself but sometimes finding the balance can be very hard.

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